I've Noticed

The people who become obsessive or incredibly passionate about a certain matter are those who are looking to fill a void in their lives. An emptiness left by a lack of appreciation, a void caused by a lack of love, the search for approval or the search to fulfill an incomprehensible missing something in their lives, something they just can’t put a finger on. The latter ‘something’ entails to a rather specific group of people. A group of people I’ve chosen to call the ‘wanderers.’ These ‘wanderers’ tend to be emotionally unstable and mentally inconsistent. Of course people must move on, in regards to life, thus improving and making positive progress. However these ‘wanderers’ move on in a different sense of the phrase. They tend to forget the past, ignore the present and inch towards a mirage in their future. When visualizing these people, I see a dog running in circles behind its own tail. Constantly searching, looking for answers, answers to unanswerable questions. Answers to questions that can only be answered if one believes in a higher power, something to justify all the unfathomable phenomena occurring around us. Back to the point. These wanderers and others who are searching for the cement to fill the hole in their lives are often left high and dry with nothing to satisfy them. Therefore they accept whatever happens to be the most available and fulfilling at the time, latch on and don’t let go. They become bloodsucking infatuated parasites. This host of theirs temporarily fills the gap and during their period of infatuation they defend their host with tooth and nail. This defensive nature does not stem from a faith in their host’s qualities or anything of the sort, but from a profound debt they feel towards the entity that has brought a temporary sense of fulfillment in their lives.
This type of relationship is absolutely unhealthy. Just because you’re empty, just because you feel like your heart is nothing but a never-ending abyss of sorrow and rejection, turning to something, or someone to make you whole is not a realistic solution. Are you truly so insecure in yourself that you feel the need to let yourself go in the arms of an unfamiliar entity which you allow to consume and dictate your being?
I am from a Catholic background, slightly agnostic and definitely open minded. I’m not one of those Christians who believe that if you’ve heard the word of God yet decided to follow a different path you’re immediately banished to hell. Psh. In that case it’s better to remain uneducated. However if you think about it, for the latter part of that statement to be true, one must believe the first part, as that statement itself (I have been told) is a (Pentecostal) Christian doctrine. If one were not Christian, that statement would not apply therefore you would not go to hell. So remember peeps, if you’re a Christian who doesn’t follow the word of God, remember to convert out of Christianity to save your soul from eternal torture. Sigh. I’m sorry if I offended anybody, that thought has been really consuming my mind the last few days. Back to the point, again.
You do not need to surrender yourself to an unknown entity just to feel fulfillment within yourself! Sure, that’s one way, I’m not scorning upon it. All I’m saying is there are other POSITIVE alternatives. In life you always have a choice. You just need to have trust and belief in yourself. You need to face the reality, understand your obstacles and embrace the qualities you are able to use to overcome the obstacles (No quality is entirely positive or entirely negative. Every quality depends on the circumstance in which it’s used). Embrace your inner strength. There may be a higher power, there may be not (I for one, believe in a higher power, this entire post is purely ‘just saying’), but either way, don’t leave it up to someone you can’t even see (atheist point of view). God, if you do believe in him, will want you to help yourself, God is love and love is pure and love is true. Your life up to a certain point, is in your hands. The rest is up to fate, luck or God. Whichever you wish to call it.