A Post by the Spawn of Satan

You know what. Let me clear something up with you. I'm not evil. I'm not mean, I'm not sinister. I'm not cruel and I'm not cold. I get very emotionally attached and I really feel for people. In case most of you shit heads haven't realised, it's me you come for when you need a shoulder to cry on or some advice. Then you're okay, you leave and while you're gone you forget about everything I did for you.

I CAN be cold, I CAN be cruel, I CAN be sinister and do you want to know why that is? It's because of YOU. Yes, you. This is the way you all left me. 'I'm not pretending. No hope, no love, no glory, no happy ending.' I'm completely on my own. All of you are too, but I know it. I've accepted it. I think realistically and deeply. My walls of cruelty were only built up after experiencing so much hurt in my life from those I let into my little bubble and ever since, I've had trust issues. I can't get close to anyone I spend time with or who cares. Those I open up to, don't give a shit. And the very few who care, I don't open up to because at the end of the day, everyone leaves and I'm sick of losing friendships so I feel that it's better to refrain from them altogether. I like happy people, I like being random, I like drama and I like fun. I also like deep thing. But I can't stand horror movies or serial killers, surprise you? Thought I was gonna turn out to be one, huh? ^^

I just had to unload. I'm sick of my stereotype. I'd play the misunderstood card, but it's so cliche and I dislike cliche. :) I'm not going to lie to your face and tell you I love you, like the best friend you spend 24 hours with but goes home and throws darts at the voodoo doll she has of you next to her bed. I don't do things like that.
I know a lot of the fear people have of me is through respect and that, of course, I am going to maintain. But realise, I have emotions. I have so many emotions, I'd be depressed if I expressed them to you. I get hurt by the smallest of things and realise, I analyse everything. The way in which you move, the way in which you talk, the tone which you use, so don't think that I can't see what you're doing - just because I don't say anything. I'm just going to endure this and when my time is up, run far far away.